I’ve heard it said on the call last night that there will be a point when we realize that we aren’t chasing God but that God is chasing us. I do feel that I’ve struggled most of my life and I see in the lesson that it’s because ego mind cannot grasp the present, which is the only time there is. Therefore cannot understand time and cannot in fact understand anything. As I read this I felt anger surge because why would a loving God let me struggle through and have thoughts repeat endlessly keep me stuck in an endless circle of darkness nothingness. This makes me really angry. Feel like I wanna implode and curse and kill God and then burn up. Why does it have to take so long for it to turn around? Is the Holy Spirit in charge of how long it takes.